Well today was supposed to be the day I had my last cigarette. Well, that's out the window and I'm finding myself going easy on me! That's not the norm for me. I've learned that beating myself up gets me feeling shitty and I then...you guessed it...I smoke more. So I'm getting off my back. It is what it is. I did great yesterday (having a total of 3) but was surrounded by my hubby's love, a long winter's nap and a movie ( a great one...We bought a zoo!) Today, my hubby left for work around noon and I had groceries to do. Damn...driving and cigs are closely knit in my subconscious right now. I know from quits in the past that I have to stay home, rest and sleep when needed. So I'm off to make supper and then drive a bit to visit a friend who's in town for the Holidays. Tomorrow's another day. I know that focusing on the habit makes it worse so I'm doing my best to focus on other things to do, my damn amazingness and my relentless drive to never quit quitting!
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