Too pooped to party

Haven't written in a while.  I've worked many many hours at my day job (which by the way really gets in the way of my creativity) and I'm teaching 2 different pup classes after hours. Anyway, I've been pooped to say the least.  Working 6 days a week has caught up to me and I had to call in sick today.  I found myself crying tears of frustration 3 nights ago and feeling kind of depressed until last pm.  Saturday afternoon proved the start of a necessary rest as my body wasn't about to get pushed in any other direction. I've spent the last 48 hours doing only what I felt I wanted to do which consisted of listening to inspiring speakers, meditations and sleeping.  Last pm I actually received some great info (from spirit) that could prove fun to teach others one day (if I ever get enough guts to come out of my shell!) It really is amazing what rest can do for someone.  I think everyone should get R & R on a weekly if not daily basis. I would love to create such a place for overworked women to just "be"...kind of a hide out in the woods where no family could find them for at least a week!   Did alot of EFT today trying to clear the bullshit beliefs that I keeping me smoking and struggling with money. I can tell I've shifted the smoking somewhat....I can't explain it...the need has released it's grip on me...I feel much closer to letting them go. My goal is to quit one last time...to let go of all the reasons I reach for them once and for all. What I've recently learnt is that all addictions are used as a coping skill, to keep you from really feeling something or looking squarely at something that you would rather deny. OK...I knew this before but I'm now looking deeply into what I don't want to feel or see. Our money situation comes to mind immediately.   I've come so far releasing drama from my life and feel more internal peace than I have in years so why this damn struggle with money? There's still something inside of me creating it and I'm gonna get to the f'n bottom of it soon!  Got to run...more tapping (EFT) to do!